16 June 2010

Dear sweetpea,

Today hasn't been the best of days :\
Although there were good moments!
I don't want you to think I'm being pessimistic :) The major issue today was that I woke up and I had, well...
the Ramses Runs! :O
Call it Mummy Tummy or the Pharaonic Pharts, I had it bad today! And I don't blame it on the water, because I've been drinking that nonstop now for 2 weeks. I blame it on this meal I had at the cafeteria here, it was a chicken curry with rice. Tasted yummy when I ate it, but all day today I've been severely regretting it :\ The worst part is this cramp I have. Lol, I won't go into details, that's the last thing you need. But I'm feeling a little better now, as I write this. Only when I get up and walk around do I get a pretty harsh cramp, but its only for a minute or so.
Lol, my teacher, Safaa, told me to tell you, "Safaa says hello" and "She needs to come here and visit, we will have a fun class for her." Lol, I talk about you with everyone :P But todays class went well, except for the stomach ache! After that I went to the library and read up on an article for my Anthropology class, and then I went to the AUC book store to look around at dictionaries. Supposedly my Arabic professor said that there is a really good Colloquial Arabic dictionary for a good price, so I'll have to see which one it is tomorrow. After that I listened to some music and just relaxed in the sunlight, warming myself up (They keep the buildings super air conditioned, so it's refreshing walking out into the blazing heat!) I made some really good points on Internet Dating and Online Social groups today, mostly about trust issues and how these sites can and do work out in some cases. The two guys laughed at me when I said that my mom had gone on some internet dating sites, but whatever! Lol, they insist on speaking in Arabic most of the time, but the professor kind of called them out today and asked them to please be considerate and speak English. Sometimes she would even translate for me :) Lol, at the beginning of class, we went to this one Islamic Internet Dating site, called qiran.com, and it was pretty fun. Of course the other guys were like, look up 20 year old Lebanese girls (My professor had to explain to me that Lebanese girls are supposedly the best looking in the Middle East...lol....awkward) Anyways, I took the bus home today and stayed awake the whole time :) I had a really good nights rest last night :)
That brings me to a point I wanted to share with you :\ I'm kind of concerned about you, Stef. I know we talk every now and then, and we get to message every day. I'm afraid though, that even though we are always communicating, we're not really communicating. I think I could be doing more in letting up a bit, because I think I may have been pressuring you into writing to me and talking to me a little too much. I know you have a busy schedule, so I will definitely try and lighten up :) I just feel like there's something between us (lol, like maybe a few thousand miles?) It's more than that, though :\ I feel like you don't want to share everything with me in the fear that it will ruin my trip, or that it doesn't matter because I won't be able to physically help. Neither of these are true. It would never ruin my trip to hear about you, because I am much more concerned with someone who is my life than with something that is just a small blip in it. I wish I could hold you and help you through all this, I honestly wish it with all my heart. I know I cannot be there physically, but I will do anything to make things okay with you. You make me so proud by how you keep everything together. But I want you to know that you don't have to be all together to be with me. I want all of you, and even if that means you fall to pieces every now and then, I want all of you! You not being able to sleep is only one instance of late. I know you tell me everything is okay and that it will work itself out. Don't be afraid to cry, Stef :) I want to hear the good, the bad aaand the ugly :) I hope you take this to heart, my love.
Today is my roommate's birthday, and so at 10pm my time we are all going out to a club called After 8. Lol...it sounds really expensive and I still don't feel 100%, but I kind of have to go because 1)He's my roomie, and 2)I don't want to lose contact with my group, plus it should be fun! I'm only going to have a beer, because I don't want to get drunk for my classes tomorrow :) You don't have to worry about me and other girls too, baby. Everyone else is so bland compared to you. I can't stop looking at pictures of you, it literally makes me smile everytime. I was thinking about our future today, and that made me smile as well.
I really hope that everything is okay, sugar. I know you love me, and you're just trying to protect me. But it's my turn to be there for you.
You just have to let me in :)

- - -, sweetpea :)

Love Always and Forever,
Boogertongue